Always Classy

Man feelings are weird but good weird.  When I came back to ISU I started talking to a girl that I had a previous fling with while at EIU for undergrad. Things didn’t work out because we were both at different schools, two hours apart, and I had no car. Fast forward to now, we’re still about 40 minutes apart but I also have to drive through her town a few times a week because I work as the AT at a school the town over. We started things off and progressed. I asked her to be my gf but she hit the pause button on that and wanted me to wait a month. That was weird but I actually wanted to go along with that because there’s just something about her and our situation that feels right. I don’t think I would’ve done that for anyone else. We don’t get to see each other as often as we’d like but we talk all the time. We talk and act like we’re dating. I’ve met her family several times and they keep inviting me to events. Her dad even invited me to go to St. Louis with them this past weekend. But yeah the month is up on Saturday and I’m super pumped up. This is just special. I’ve already done so much for her that I had never even thought of doing for anyone else. So yeah feelings are weird but at least they’re finally good.

So this morning when I first woke up I checked fb. Literally the first post I saw was one of my exes saying she was pregnant with twins. I’m not trying to hate on her but I thought it was hilarious and I felt relieved it wasn’t me. Like having twins at like 23, single and working 2 jobs kinda blows. Meanwhile I’m in grad school getting my masters paid for and talking to a new girl who I’m really falling for kinda fast. Life is good lol.

My old job said that I would receive my full pay and benefits until my last day. Just looked at my pay statement and it seems like that is not the case. I am only being paid for the extra hours that I worked and not my salaried pay. So now I’m short about $900 after taxes. I also can’t afford to pay all of my bills and my textbooks for class. So time to bitch at them and ask my family to borrow money until I get my financial aid refund and/or my GA stipend. Just another reason why this company blows and I’m glad that I no longer work with them.

Man I’m so excited for school to start. Yesterday I did my grad assistant preceptor orientation and it got me pumped. We went over two pieces of equipment and I tried hard not to nerd out. Like I’ve changed so much since high school in regards to academics. I finally started doing things I love and it’s amazing. The only thing I’m worried about is more and more lately I’ve been thinking about going for my PhD once I get my masters degree and I def don’t wanna do it but I really do. Like I hate research but I might wanna do it. And I’ve been thinking more and more that I want to teach at the university level and I’d get paid way more with a PhD. When did I become an academic nerd?

versacethotty:

when you hear mariah carey humming at the beginning of we belong together and you have to mentally collect yourself to sing your ass off for the next 3 minutes and 20 seconds

(via librecomoelmar)

I really don’t remember the last time I’ve used tumblr but yeah. Life is good. I got a grad assistant position for next year. Ya boy is officially getting his masters degree tuition paid for while also receiving a stipend. Plus the financial aid I was offered covers my student fees that isn’t a part of the tuition waiver, and my rent for the year. I’m also working with the Chicago Bears through the company I work for to provide extra athletic training coverage. Life is dope rn so let’s keep it that way.

Being a real adult is kind of okay but i definitely miss college. Doing what I love on the daily is cool but I miss hanging out with my friends everyday. I only go out like twice a month and I barely drink. Like on NYE I probably had like 6 total drinks. Plus my friends are all spread out now. Like at least 30 minutes to go see someone and you have to schedule it. And then I’m one of the few who are still single so I’m always x wheeling. I miss college, drinking, doing drugs, and not worrying about real life shit. I feel like if I tried to drop acid now it would be bad because I’d end up getting a random call/text from someone important and fuck up. At least I still smoke pot.